RIP LjG

It seems so weird that somebody my age just died of cancer. Not very often does a teenager get cancer. And it was so rare for anybody much less a teenager. She fought for two years and never gave up. She was determined to get through the cancer and be able to live a normal life again. But things happen for reasons that nobody can explain and she passed away. She hadn't been given much of a chance by the doctors and she lived a lot longer than most people thought she would. I feel so sorry for the Daviess County softball team and her family. They were there for lauren through the entire thing and they fought for her all the time. I was not close with lauren but I am very close with some of the softball girls and I know how hard this is on them. They practically lost a sister yesterday. I couldn't imagine what I would do if I lost a friend like this. Pray for LjG!

I Would Take Time Out To:

-go for a walk
-redo my room
-watch a law and order marathon
-run a marathon
-go back packing through Europe
-go to Hawaii
-go to New York City
-spend time with my family
-listen to every song on my ipod
-go for a drive somewhere
-make a scrapbook
-visit colleges
-go bungee jumping
-go sky diving
-lay out
-sleep outside and watch the stars
-nothing

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Whoever said that words would never hurt was a lier. I know you shouldn't listen to everything that people say but that's really hard to do when everyone keeps saying the same thing over and over again. It gets really hard to ignore after awhile. At first I just played it off and thought they were just trying to get on my nerves or jealous or whatever. But now that every person around me seems to have an opinion about my life and past things that you can't change. Things that I had absolutely nothing to do with. But somehow it's my fault and that turns me into a horrible person. I just don't get how people can judge you off of something that happened a year ago and that I wasn't even there or around.......

I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings

I finally finished this book for english. I thought it was going to be another stupid book that I would be forced into reading but it actually turned out to be a really good book. I am thinking about reading the rest of her books, which normally I would never do. Maya Angelou has a really good outlook on life. She makes you realize that things aren't really as bad as they seem and somebody always has it worse than you. I realized that I complain about a lot of pointless things when some people are worried about where they are going to sleep at night. I love how Maya worked through all the struggles she had in her life and never gave up. Now she is very successful and it's all because she never gave on what she wanted to accomplish.

Ways To Say Yes!

sure
why not
sounds good to me
it's possible
will do
yepp
yeah
mhm
uh-huh
si
oui
ano
ja
oo

Softball Scrimmage

Tonight is our first scrimmage. It will be the first time we have actually gotten on our field with another team and parents and fans around cheering for us. I'm not exactly sure how well it's going to go because we have a lot of people out sick or injured. Our other pitcher is out with the flu so I am going to start tonight. I'm really nervous because my arm has been pretty sore and I haven't been throwing as well as I need to be. Hopefully I can do just enough and the defense will be good enough to win the game. And I'm really nervous about my hitting. The past few days I haven't been hitting exactly how I would like and normally do. It's like I'm thinking to much about the game and it's messing with my head. Hopefully I can fix it before the game starts and everything will turn out ok.

Party! Party! Party!

Friday is going to be the day of parties. In first period we are celebrating Mr. Bate's birthday. We get to have another donut day. We are also wearing are "We Heart Bates" shirts. Then in english we get to watch the UK game. I hate it when the SEC tournament starts because they always play during the day. Usually teachers won't let us watch the game because either they aren't UK fans or they just don't think we should watch it during school. But we actually get to watch the game and bring in food and drinks and have a party. During Fuller's class I'm sure we will eat some food in there too. We always do it seems like. My fourth period class is going to seem extremely boring compared to the rest of the day. Jones is going to have to do something really cool to top the rest of my classes.

Love

What exactly makes us fall in love? You can't just look at a person and say "Hey I pick you, we are in love now." It just doesn't work like that. You have to take the time to get to know somebody and get to understand what makes them tick. Everyone has those little imperfections that make them who they are. That is truly what you fall in love with. You can't fall in love with somebody who is perfect. That would be to boring. There would be nothing exciting about that. There would be nothing different or weird or strange about them. And in the end that's what you love. That is what gets you through the rough days in life. Everything could seem to be falling apart around you but that one person can do or say something so funny or make you so happy that everything else is gone. Nothing else matters anymore. And sometimes those people you love just need to be there for you so you have somebody to listen to you bicker and whine about every little thing in your life. Not to actually fight with you but just to bicker with. To those who don't understand it, it looks like fighting. But it is honestly makes things interesting no matter what. It makes my day to be able to joke around and boss around somebody and have both people know that it is all just a big joke. To me, that is love.

"So it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be really hard; we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but i want to do that because i want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me.....everday."
(The Notebook)